The trifecta of everything that went wrong

I was a senior in high school. I had previously briefly dated a guy my junior year. I thought he cared like I did (he took me to his senior prom) and his family really liked me. Turns out that he was just a player and he decided to stop talking to me and hung out with another girl at a show we were at. Completely ignored me and I was devastated. 

Flash forward to senior year and I had just been broken up with by someone I really cared about, who I thought I loved. this guy cheated on me with a younger girl at his house which was 3 down from mine. Again, devastated. So I started hanging out with guy number 1 again. Nothing serious but I was too uptight around him to trust that he was being sincere. I knew his reputation and it had only gotten worse the longer I knew him. 

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A Bad Feeling in my Stomach

The first time I had sex with my high school boyfriend, I had just told him I didn't want to have sex yet. One second we were messing around like we had before, and the next second he was inside of me. At first, I was really confused. I had only had sex with one boy at that point in time, and I didn't quite understand until a few seconds in what had happened. It didn't feel right.. But, ultimately, I decided it was okay. 

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Why I'm terrified of coming out of the closet

After a few weeks of dating this guy, I decided it was time to tell him I am bisexual. I haven't told my family and only my close friends know. I was worried he would freak out, because he had said some borderline offensive things about the LGBTQ community in the past. He meant them as jokes, but I feared those jokes were just a tiny veil for his homophobia. He didn't freak out. He was thrilled. He said he finally found a girl who would be open to a three-way. I declined, saying that I wasn't comfortable enough in this relationship to bring in another person. 
 

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How I Lost It

I’m still unsure of how I lost my virginity. It was with my first boyfriend and we had fooled around for a few months before taking the leap and having, to us, full on sex. Those first couple of months were a whirlwind for me. We started out pretty hot and heavy, within minutes of my first kiss with him he had me in his lap making out. Days later his pant were unzipped in the back of his car and him telling me to put my mouth there. I had never done anything like that before I had no idea what I was doing and as he held my head down and I struggled to breathe I thought, “I guess this is what having a boyfriend is like”. 

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