The trifecta of everything that went wrong

I was a senior in high school. I had previously briefly dated a guy my junior year. I thought he cared like I did (he took me to his senior prom) and his family really liked me. Turns out that he was just a player and he decided to stop talking to me and hung out with another girl at a show we were at. Completely ignored me and I was devastated. 

Flash forward to senior year and I had just been broken up with by someone I really cared about, who I thought I loved. this guy cheated on me with a younger girl at his house which was 3 down from mine. Again, devastated. So I started hanging out with guy number 1 again. Nothing serious but I was too uptight around him to trust that he was being sincere. I knew his reputation and it had only gotten worse the longer I knew him. 

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The Night America Told Me that Sexual Assault is Okay

Last night, Donald Trump was elected president. I, like many Americans, couldn't believe it. My Facebook page was drowning in legitimate criticism about his policies, racism, sexism, ableism, etc. People were outraged at the people who voted for third party candidates and the people who wrote in Harambe. 

My anger, however, is reserved for the 53% of white women who voted for this man. A man who brags about committing sexual assault and is on trial for raping a 13-year-old girl.

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A Bad Feeling in my Stomach

The first time I had sex with my high school boyfriend, I had just told him I didn't want to have sex yet. One second we were messing around like we had before, and the next second he was inside of me. At first, I was really confused. I had only had sex with one boy at that point in time, and I didn't quite understand until a few seconds in what had happened. It didn't feel right.. But, ultimately, I decided it was okay. 

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I think it was consensual

In high school, I had a new boyfriend every few months and was rarely single. So, when I got to college, I figured it would be the same. But, no guy was interested in anything other than a casual hookup and hanging out in his dorm. I was honestly kind of scared to be alone with a guy in his room. This fear didn't come from being a virgin because I had already had sex before. I guess I was just nervous about going too far with someone I didn't know well. I decided not to sleep with any guys for the first few months because I figured that I'd eventually feel comfortable enough with the casual dating style of college.

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